Oh, October, how quickly you left us . . .

I'm starting to be more honest with myself. About myself. Every time I take note of a certain trait I have, good or bad, I don't think much more about it. But in order to find ME (which has been a goal and struggle for a long time), I need to take note and then DO some thing about these things. Either fix them, use them, appreciate them, evaluate them and how they work in my life and my happiness. I'm currently reading the Dalai Lama's book "The Art of Happiness: A Handbook for Living," and I've already learned so much, just from the first 3 chapters. I'm excited to see what lessons the rest of the book brings.

This is a busy(ish) week. Work every day, a few auditions, etc. I already had two auditions. Last night I went to a call for extras at the Guthrie. Their production of The Winter's Tale opens in February and goes until the end of March, which is when I would be in rehearsals for Antigone. I ended up leaving the audition because I didn't want to waste their time. Had I been cast, I most likely wouldn't have been able to do it. What's more worth it? A credit at the Guthrie as an extra? Or a leading role at a smaller theatre? For my soul, it's definitely the larger role. I need something juicy to work on.

I also just got home from an audition for The Anatomy of Gray. I'm definitely not expecting anything from this. The only character I could have been considered for spends the majority of the play at 15 years old. There was probably 90% pretty teenage girls at the audition tonight . . . so . . . yup. I read once, right away, and the director didn't need anything from me after that. I'm sure she has about 50 actual 15 year olds to choose from.

Z and I saw The 39 Steps at the Guthrie on Sunday. SUCH a great production! There were 4 actors playing probably 30 different roles, and the physical acting was just incredible. I love being able to see the product of such intense, dedicated work.

This Saturday I'm attending the premiere screening of the movie I did! It's definitely not as big a deal as I make it sound- we'll just have some snacks and watch it on the TV in the director's living room, but still. My film debut!

I hope everyone had a great Halloween weekend! Mine was pretty un-Halloweeny. I never have enough motivation to put effort into a costume (except for the year I was one of my bffs Beatus Hoang, and even that was last minute), so this year . . . no costume. Pathetic, I know! At least I have one thing in common with Jim Halpert. We could have apathetic Halloweens together. But Z and I loaded up on candy and watched Interview with the Vampire, so it was an overall good night.

I went crazy and bought three pairs of shoes online last night, including a pair of black boots that I've been searching endlessly for. Here's hoping they all fit and are perfect and bring tears of joy to my eyes.

I feel like this is the most random post ever . . . apologies. It's how I make up for being the world's worst blog poster. I'm working on it, I promise!

P.S. I don't know where I found her (through someone else's blog, I'm sure), but check her out: Color Me Katie. I LOVE her work, and she just seems so joyful and excited about life! I love looking at her blog.

Ok . . . the dishes are calling my name. I must answer.